Blugh, I SO do not want to write this post.. Why? Because I don’t want to think about my feet and in particular, my forthcoming – longed for, way-overdue operation. However, I think it is important to document my feelings/pain/recovery/experience in this way as it may help others in the future.
My name is Humphrey, I am brave and strong! I am not afraid of ANYTHING! (with the exception of nasty stuff happening to my family) Always the first to enter into dangerous situations, memories of derelict Spanish houses come immediately to mind! I’ve had three children “the old-fashioned way” with just gas, air and ridiculous panting to get me through. So why, oh why am I so nervous about my operation? It’s ridiculous, I can’t even read the literature the Surgeon gave me. I have made very vague plans for transport, after-care etc, I have pretty much blocked the whole event from my terrified mind.
OK, focus.. the operation itself is to correct deformity in my right foot. My foot first started troubling me when I lived in Kent in 2009, it was just a sore toe, didn’t think much of it. I had to have a full body scan for suspected arthritis that year, it showed up in the big toe on my right foot. It has been a long, hard slog getting a date for this operation, originally a much less invasive on which was scheduled for May 2010. Following the removal of accountability to the 18 week waiting lists, my operation was abandoned and I was left hanging on the list.. My foot has deteriorated a lot since then through usage (although I’ve been very careful not to walk/stand much since last June) and it now requires different, more serious surgery.
*breathes*… the surgeon is taking a piece of bone out of my big toe, just before the big joint which has bone over-growth on it, preventing it from moving. He will also remove the overgrowth and possibly the joint, depending on how eroded it is. There will be a metal plate put in to stabilise the foot and maybe some fake cartilage. This is all designed to force the foot to perform properly and prevent it “rolling” to the right. In time my left foot will need the same treatment.
It is really odd, nobody else in my family has had problems with their mobility, save for my little niece who has a form of cerebal palsy. I am certain that my condition has been brought on by Rheumatiod Arthritis, this has yet to be confirmed although my hands have been diagnosed with mild arthritis and my neck has “wear and tear”. I am due back with the Rheumatoligist in March, hopefully he will test me for RA and take new X-Rays of my neck, I have been in severe pain with it for almost a year!
Back to the feet… Today I collected my post-surgery painkillers and received my hospital “check-in” letter. Sunday I will go shopping, topping up all the essential items and buying lots of pro-biotic yogurts.. I will be on anti-biotics for a week or so and they always seem to wipe me out completely, due I am sure to lack of good bacteria. That’s my theory anyway : )
I’ll write more about feet in general and post some pics of pre and post surgery as the week goes by but enough for now.. *puts operation thoughts back on a floaty cloud and blows it skywards*